Spring is here! :D I reeeally love that warmth on my face. Actually this is the first time I see my 'new' hair on pics and I have to say, that they look different than usually haha :D but I totally like them. I have 2 days off, so I told myself to d something productive. Here it is! :) Anyways, Ill spam you with pics now :P
My fav! :D
Song for today is def Jack Johnson's (yes, lately I'm hypnotized by his music :P) 'Better Together'. I feel so carefree while listening to it :)
I honestly don't really know what to write about, but I guess I need to do something, SOMETHING, doesn't matter what (who cares that I have tons of homework...)
My last post was about studies and studying itself. It really made me think about my future. I sat down and I thought about my plans. Suddenly I felt so sure about my plan to become an interior designer. I don't know yet where I want to study, but at least I know for sure what I want to do. I hope this time it won't change... I mean, 2 years ago I wanted to be a pilot, right? :P So, now I have to find some school... but where? :P I have a whooole world to choose from, so hard :< :P
Hey R : *
So, I love such pointless posts :D Good night to you all! xoxo
Yesterday I had a really great discussion about schools, universities, possibilities. Is that really true that if you go to a really good, expensive school, you have more possibilities? I don't know why, but during that discussion I had a funny feeling, that it's all just a bullshit. Paying for a great middle high school, meanwhile having your own teacher who you pay far too much and having all that stress about the future... is that the right thing? Maybe my point of view is wrong.
When I was at the point of choosing my middle high school, I was pretty chilled about it. I just wanted to go to a nice school, not that far away from my house, meet nice people and work at some cool projects. That's what I got - I took part in exchanges, I met great people and all that without big fuss. Different thing was when I had to choose my high school, then I was stressed like hell, because I just chose a bad school, not for me. I always think that if something is stressful, then why should I bother? I eventually got to my 'dream' high school, but eventually I changed it into something more ... normal. And well... here I am, in my normal, good high school, I learn, I have great teachers and yeah, I think that my choice was right. So for now, what differs me from people in those really great, popular schools? Why they have all the doors to future open?
I was told yesterday that it's because of the money - true. But why people rely on money that much? If I want to be a lawyer, I study, if I want to be an artist, I study. That's how it's supposed to be, I guess. Being in good school is a great thing, but if it stresses out so much, then why? Why can't it be fun? Anyway, the possibilities. If I choose my university, they probably care about my high school and also my grades or knowledge, but why the first one matters the most? And well... as my teacher said yesterday 'if you want to study in California or Holland, then think twice if it's possible for you. You are in wrong school then, I've never heard that people from your school ever studied abroad, in other, really good school, there are plenty of such' ... All I had in my mind was 'money' and 'contacts'. This was a bit painful, though it opened my eyes to something bigger, that I shouldn't care much about the number of my school, about the money or about the possibilities. I think that we are a possibility.
If you are good enough, you will achieve it, without good labels. That's what I think and I really hope that all that is true, that my abilities, talent or whatever else that I worked on, will be enough to go to the university I dreamt of.
Btw, this is how my life will look like soon :P
oh and well, school... yeah, I guess I'm pretty lucky! I have to admit, my class is pretty awesome, so many inspiring people in one, small group :)
